*achoo*

my morning sinus has never failed to disappoint me. another week before i have to go back to brisbane. my tickets are with me already. my bags are, however, not packed yet. im in a couldnt care or less mood & attitude at the moment. everytime i start caring about anything, i get disappointed. so, right now- whatever is whatever. *shrugs*

went to miri yesterday with the girls & iskandar. only went to get my derma stuff & chilli sauce! hahaha. why chilli sauce? only d sana ada yang packets. d sini yang tin. payah buka and tuang into the bottles. managed to get lipbalm and contacts as well. got car sick on the way home. had to sit in the middle so i could see the road and slept most of the time for the first half of the journey home.

somehow, lately, i cant help but feeling excited to go back. last week, i could say that i was dreading to go back. but since now i cant really do anything, i dont mind getting out of brunei. im definetely going to miss the family. and the man? *shrugs* am not seeing much of him now anyways. its going to be the same when im there too. just mostly texts & phone calls, if im lucky. *shrugs again*

dont get me wrong. i sayang him with all my heart and im pretty sure he feels the same way. but things are a bit complicated at the moment and i cant really be too fussy about it, hence, the dont care attitude. i dont want my last week in brunei to be filled with more tears than necessary. and most of all, i want to enjoy my last week here. if any of you dont want to be part of it, thats fine with me. but dont drag me to any shitholes. ive been getting myself into enough of that lately. ive been hearing & seeing things that i rather not. brunei tah lagi. adui. maybe this is also why i cant wait to go back. all safe in unit 11/74. hehehe. with my computer & tv as my companions. and yesh, the kitchen to cook all the food for my dear lovely friends. hehehe. well, we'll just have to see with the latter one :p

maybe the time apart will do us good. as long as no heart wanders, im sure it will be fine. i really want this realtionship to work but then, everyone knows that any straight road will have its humps someday, to slow you down :)