bohemian rhapsody

downloaded this of kazaa. yeah. after last night, i should at least have one queen song playing on my winamp, dont you think? the bismillah part. i thought it was just my hearing. so what does a net freak girl do? google for the lyrics. and yes, it is actually bismillah. i wonder if it was intentional? anyone care to enlighten me?

had a good chat with my wub earlier on. told him that the ex gave me a call earlier on today. yes, i am back in contact with the ex. it started with the chats from msn. he commented on how happy my wub & i looked on my avatar and continued to ask me to look for a potential gf or better, wife for him. yes, he thinks he wants to settle down within the next 2 years or so. i mocked him and asked him if the girlfriend (the one he cheated on me with) knows about this. turned out he broke up with her few weeks back and, he is now having some sort of 'issue'.

my friends and relatives were against me being in contact with him. i tried to keep the chats and texts to a minimal. avoiding him would just show that im not over him and scared of falling in love with him again. i am over him and im not scared of falling in love with him again. the latter with not because i want to fall in love him again but more because i now have a guy who loves me with all his heart. yes, he is my wub.

so yeah, i told him how the ex has been texting me and called me earlier today as well. asked him how he felt. then he asked me back the same question. told him that i do not want to offend the ex, which is why im layan-ing him. but if he is not comfortable with it, i will stop doing so. i respect him and moreover, i respect the relationship we have. being the man that i fell in love with, he told me that it is alright with him as long as i know my limits.

if i start listing down the goods of my wub, i would probably complete my dissertation :p however, he is not without flaws. he drives me nuts sometimes (okay, maybe most of the time! hehe.) but then, his flaws, such as laughing at me when i cry cos he knows half of the time i was making up excuses when i was really crying cos i miss him or forgetting to reply my texts pasal 'my phone nada sent items bah sayang- iatah kadangnya lupa', made me realise he IS a normal being after all. well, i knew these flaws from the beginning but i fell in love with him anyways :)