such a bitch.

woke up at 4am in tears- again! i was trying to squeeze the metal frame of my bed. yesh, the metal frame. i was in pain. excruciating. sigh.i couldnt take more painkillers cos i took 2 right before i went to bed at 12.30. stuffed the pillow in my face trying not to scream. i think it was a good pain? entah ah. the doctor said the bleeding is a good sign. but it will be very painful. but he said it would be much more painful if they have to go inside. argh. even thinking about it gives me a headache.

just finished writing out an essay outline AND a bar of cadbury's blackforest. i didnt like malaysian cadbury before. nada kick wah. but somehow, ani nyaman. it tasted a bit like milo there. hmm. i had to it it slowly though. i forgot about that earlier on and the inside of my ear felt like it was going to burst. fakernaden banar. i cant lie down flat on my back. slept with 3 pillows under the head. any less, id be screaming in pain. trying to shower was hell too!! tpaksa menyandar arah dinding for a bit. argh. argh argh.

am waiting for diari AF2 in a bit. hehe. dah demam ker? got the fever? demam atu demam pulang sum. but bukan demam AF eh.

random post. *shrugs* wish me well so i dont have to go to the hospital again tomorrow and i dont need to go through the 'minor but very painful procedure'.

fakernaden. why do they have to tell me its going to be more painful that what im going through now? sakit kali ah. even having my heart trampled and broken into million pieces didnt hurt like this. *SOBS*