lost and more.

just heard one news after another. dont really know what to do. kinda standing at the crossroads and you dont know which way to go. sigh.

thats minor, i suppose, as compared to the other news i was just told. i know if i try to get more of it, i wouldnt be told anything or i would be told 'white lies' just to ease the mind. sigh. they told me not to think about it. its nothing major but how can it be nothing major? well, i hope its nothing major though. amin.

yesh. my mind's a bit messy at the moment. got to calm myself down before anything else. sometimes i just refuse to think about things and just let them sort out by themselves. although it would mean having no control of my life. but whats the use of controlling the mind, the life, when its difficult to get around it. you want it that way but others involved inda mahu that way. really, it takes two to tango.

oh wellios. im too worried at the moment to really make sense to anyone. dont try to keep up with me my darlings. i can be such an arse at times. am not going to make up excuses for it but yeah.

guess its time to take up that advice, 'smile hard enough to convince others you're alright then maybe, just maybe, you can convince yourself that everything is alright.'

good night my darlings. love you.