hormones raging?

i dont know. have you ever felt like you know too much? you dont want to know but things are just sometimes dumped on you? and worst is when you cant really do much about it.

sigh. i hate not being able to take control of my life. i get pretty good advices from my loved ones out there. among their favourites are usually, 'time will take care of things', 'go with the flow' and of course, 'cest la vie'.

i know time will take care of things. but it kills, really, to let time take care of things. i know it does. banar. but lama wah rasanya. only after it took care of things you realised that but during the whole taking care of things, it kinda drives you up the wall. sigh. im impatient by nature. thats one of my vice. im not proud of it but thats me. i want to take control of things. i want to get there. i want to get things sorted out NOW. you know, that sort of thing. but of course, it would never work that way.

some things are just out of my reach. uncontrollable. let nature takes it own course? let time take care of things? go with the flow? BUGGER.

am i not making sense? i cant really explain it. no guys. am not just talking about my non-existant love life. am talking about everything in general. about everyone. hmm.

doesnt matter that you're not my favourite person, you dont deserve this. if only you knew. if only there's a way to tell you. no one deserves to be treated that way. no one. it hurts. it bloody hurts everyone involved. urgh.

babes (you know who u are!), collect your thoughts. take your time. then go for the kill. he's not worth your time if he's going to treat you that way. you know i love you yeah.

going to go sleep now. emotionally & physically drained :S