*thinking*

its already my second week here. time really does fly quickly when you're having so much fun yeah? honestly, i really want to go back as soon as possible now. it seems like i am most likley to come back here next month. apparently my chances of getting accepted is high. sigh. and its already june. orientation starts mid july. how now brown cow? i kinda miss my bed and my tv. and i miss romantica obsession too. wonder what's up by now. hmm. even thinking of coming back here next month worries me in a way. urgh. i think my hormones are acting up right now. yesterday i cried! its too complicated to explain what happened but some of you probably knew why. sigh. my period's not even due till mid month. but my 3 girlfriends are having their period. must be that! hehe.

went to toowong to run some errands tadi. met up with iqbal at the food court and he was with balqi. then met mag!! mag is my girlfriend from uni. she's this sweet sweet singaporean girl, who is very very smart!! she's doing her honours at the moment but she's thinking of dropping if.. get this.. her GPA is 5 from this semester!! hehe. anak atu tah banar. i remember from our undergrad years (eseh!), she would be very disappointed if she gets 5 or 6!! i think by the end of our course, her GPA must've been 6+ (p.s. 7 is the highest). another girlfriend of mine- sim wei, dropped her honours course few weeks into it. inda ia tahan. and both of them are these two smart chicks and pun inda tahan, apatah lagi aku tu! hehehehe. terseluar dalam kali eh. hahaha. mag mentioned that they have raised their standards in uni- 7 (>95%) is first class, 6.5 (>90%) second upper, 6 (>80%) is second lower and 5 (>75%) is third class. of course, actual grades are at the lecturers' discretion but it is something along that standard. gila eh. sayang saja inda tidur, put on weight, stress, pay $12000 if you were going to get third class. especially since you have to slave your year away doing a 20,000-30,000 words thesis. fuck it. hehehe.

the girls are watching the secret life of us downstairs and i just heard this, 'i want to be fucked, real hard' from the show and the girls were laughing their asses off. haha.

we had mee mamak ffrom Two Wongs from dinner. nyaman rupanya when its without vegies. hehe. napa ia ah? most kedais i noticed put a lot of beansprouts in their food. urgh. i think beansprout is just a sad excuse AFTER mixed vegies for having vegetables in meals. hehe. dont hate them but dont like them either :)

sigh. at the moment i have heaps of things on my mind that i dont quite know how to sort out. when it comes to you, all hell breaks loose. sometimes in a good way, sometimes in a bad way. but for the moment, im taking thing as it is. ada ada, nada nada. mum was angry when i mentioned this to her. oh well. some things are just so difficult :S spoke to 2 guys about it briefly. can you believe it lelaki ani wah. hehe. one was in a total state of shock but he gladly said he wasn't going to judge me. he also said that he knew about it all along and i was like huh? bangang banar. was it that obvious? the other guy said that i didn't have to worry about my friends judging me especially if i know what is right for me.

i havent talked to helen about this for awhile, which is why im practically packing my bags to come home as soon as possible. but now, i have to sort some things before next semester and dad wants me to be here to do it. sigh. if alum selasai by friday, im not going back on saturday. i want to balik lah. kan shopping pun nada mood. tadi wanted to splurge on lingerie sudah. picked up a few this and that. skali i found myslf putting them back sal no mood berabis. urgh.

helen, you've been a really really good friend! you've stick by me through thick and thing albeit the distance between us. i know ive thanked you so so many times but i dont think it'd be enough, ever. love you ever so much teng.miss you heaps.

am chatting with kadede right now. hehe. she's layaning my crappy mood. thanks ka! gonna chat some more with her now and then continue with my book. nite my sweets.